Brrr nippy noodles, folks

All of a sudden (well, over the last few weeks) the temperature has really dropped and I am experiencing the chills and draughts that come from living in my little cottage. 

Whilst it’s a lovely little cottage, and it looks so beautiful in my living room with the Christmas tree and all the lights, the downside of this old house is that it’s full of holes! And has thin, minimally insulated walls! And old single glazing windows! COLD!

I am a frugal girl, don’t you know? I find it very hard to spend money because growing up we never had any to spend. So living in a house that genuinely gets so cold that my hands hurt has been a true challenge for me. 

I know I can afford to put the heating on. I am blessed to know a God who has provided me with a job, and that my job pays enough for all my household expenses – including money for a higher heating bill.

And yet I still struggle to justify putting the heating on because it feels like such an unnecessary luxury!

 

Right now I have a checklist to decide whether it’s justified:

– at least 3 layers on top, with socks and slippers

– hot water bottle andmicrowave heat bag

– a blanket

– candles

If I’ve done all those things and I’m still cold, I’ll put the heating on. But it’s a torturous decision each time.

Lately I’ve realised that my reluctance to put the heating on shows my lack of trust and dependence on God. It shows I don’t believe that he will meet my each and every need. Me not using the heating is me saying to God, “I don’t trust you to take care of me…you aren’t going to keep providing for me…I need a contingency plan”

Totally stupid. Totally wrong. 

 

 

I know I can trust God to meet my needs. He does it everyday.  He sustains me.

 

 

 

 

So I’m turning the heating on. 

 

 

This doesn’t mean I’m going to start putting the it up to 22°c and wander around in a t-shirt…I am still going to be sensible and have my little checklist….but I don’t need to wait until I’m literally freezing to do it!

Why yes, I am still alive

I don’t seem to have the hang of this blogging regularly thing, do I? Looking back through my “recent” posts, it’s a bit shameful that all I’ve done is post briefly captioned photos.

At least it’s proof I am still actually alive. And to be honest I have been thinking about blogging, and meaning to post updates – but life has just been the absolute definition of insane!

So here’s a bullet-point update of my life, as is, right now.

Work:
Busy as busy can be. Our Ofsted inspection did not have the outcome we had hoped for, but one positive is that the inspector has recommended I am trained up and promoted to Deputy Manager. Unfortunately this came too late for me to enrol in the 13/14 intake, but next September I will be enrolled on an NVQ Level 5 Leadership and Management in Health and Social Care Services course at the local HE college. Yay for further education, yay for new challenges. Yay for 10 months to brush up so I feel ready for this!

Day to day work is busy, but that seems to be the status quo right now. We’ve just got to roll with it. I am praying lots to get through the day.

Home:
I have decorated my house for Christmas and it looks BEAUTIFUL! Pictures to follow in a separate Christmassy post. My family are coming to stay at Christmas and I cannot wait to have them all here.

Family:
My sister is cancer-free!!! Hooray hooray hooray!! She had her radio-iodine treatment 20th-22nd November, and on 22nd November had a scan which showed no sign of cancer at all. We are all so pleased and relieved and thankful. She still has a recovery – to adjust to not having a thyroid and keeping her thyroxine and calcium levels stable (with medication) but she is doing brilliantly. Our family gets a cancer-free start to 2014 🙂

General:
In general I am well and happy. Currently a bit stressed over work issues and a minor car bump that happened on Saturday, but it’s in the hands of insurers and the important thing is no-one was hurt. Hard to sustain injury at barely 1mph, isn’t it?!

I have an “exciting” appointment with my dentist tomorrow as my wisdom tooth has been playing up for 2 weeks and I’m getting frustrated. It’s really painful, but I don’t know if it’s normal pain or “there’s a problem” pain. So I’m getting it checked out. Last time I went to the dentist I got my first ever filling and I was mortified. It wasn’t even to fill a hole, just to cover where my tooth had gotten sensitive but I still could have cried.

And that’s about it, my life in a condensed version. Life is dominated by work, if I’m not working I am with my friends, or at church, or at the gym.

If none of the above, I can usually be found sleeping. I love my bed and my bed loves me.

Hopefully more regular updates will resume now/shortly but for now, please don’t give up on me!

-x-