1 week to go

Happy Monday, World!

Today is the start of my final Impact week. I can’t actually believe it’s going to be ending on Sunday…it’s a very surreal thought. Right now I don’t think I’m truly entertaining it. I’m not sure if I’m happy or sad that it’s ending. I know I’m looking forward to the next ‘phase’…working full-time (after my 2 week holiday that is). I can’t really imaging not doing Impact, but then at the same time I know that I couldn’t imaging myself doing it forever.

My house is back to normal now – Rosie has a new carpet and her furniture is now back in her room, and I’ve rearranged mine. Some people might suggest that 10 o’clock at night isn’t the best time to shift furniture around, but I am not one of them!! My wardrobe did almost collapse on me as I tried to rotate it, but fortunately it (and I!!) remained intact and it is now in a much better position.

I do have photos, but I can’t upload them because I’m using Rosie’s laptop. Mine has died, for good, which is sad because now I have to try and do all kinds of tricky fancy stuff to get all my photos etc off my hard-drive. I’ll upload new photos when I’ve got my new laptop, which hopefully won’t be too long.

So now home is lovely and clean and tidy and nice, except that Rosie isn’t here 😦 She has gone on holiday today, and won’t be back until the middle of my holiday…so we won’t see each other for a few weeks now. It’ll be the middle of August by the time I’m back from holiday, and I can’t really imagine that! I’m enjoying having two whole weeks of holiday (including 3 weekends!!!) to relax and do nothing, if I so choose.

Can’t wait!


I’m living in chaos :(

Last week, at bedtime, Rosie came into my room and said that her room smelt. We went to investigate, and discovered that the reason her room smelt was that her carpet was wet.

And by wet…I mean, absolutely and completely sodden! Boo 😦

We called our landlords and they came to check it out the next day, and did this:

the carpet is all gone 😦

The carpet was too wet, so they had to cut it up and now the whole lot has been replaced…which is good. But, in the meantime we had to move all Rosie’s stuff into my room because of the smell, and so that the new carpet could go in.

For the last ten days, my room has looked like this…  


Chaos hurts my brain 😦

But, I’m thinking positively about it: it happened only a few days before I went to Brighton, so Rosie was able to sleep in my bed for the week rather than having to sleep on the fold out bed until her room was fixed…it was fixed really quickly, because we have kind and understanding landlords who came out immediately and didn’t make us feel like it was our fault…and it now gives me more of a reason to fix up my room properly. I was getting bored of it the way it is, and it’s hard to keep it neat because there is too much floor space and not enough storage.

That’s three reasons why it’s not a complete disaster…which is good enough for me.

The Friday Feeling

I love Fridays…knowing that the weekend stretches out ahead. Saturdays are sort of my favourite day, because I can choose to do whatever I’d like. I can even choose to do nothing, not that that choice lasts more than a few hours before I get supremely bored.

It’s been a long week and I’ve felt like a zombie through most of it – my very late night on Monday took several nights to recover from and I only started to be human again yesterday. It’s weird that even though I did get 8 hours sleep on Monday, because I’d been awake for so long before that (I worked a 17 hour day!) I needed much more sleep, but life didn’t really account for that.

Still. It’s been a good week, even if it’s been long. I’m currently reading “A Voice in the Wind” by Francine Rivers, and it took me a good few attempts to make it past the first paragraph because I was listen to music at the same time. This doesn’t work because even though my eyes are reading the words of the book, my mind is singing the words of the song!

Nevertheless, I’m now very “into” the book. It’s one of a series I’ve borrowed from Faith, my friend and cell leader. It’s about a Christian girl who is enslaved after the fall of Jerusalem, many years after Christ’s death and resurrection. She’s bought by family living in Rome, and I won’t spoil any of the story but it’s dark and sad and disturbing and beautiful and hopeful and inspiring all at once. Some bits can be quite gory, but not just for the sake of it – only as much is needed for the development of the story, and while there is reference to sex, it’s not in a descriptive way (the same as the gory parts) so I would have no issue recommending it to people.

I’m off to my discipler’s house tonight, to help her paint a playhouse for her children. I’m excited. I really enjoy spending time with their family – I wish I’d gotten to know them earlier. It will be a fun night, and then hopefully I’ll have a lie-in tomorrow morning before my free Saturday!



I did plan to blog last night, but I was on call for work and ended up being called out at 9.30pm to go looking for two of our girls who’d done a runner earlier in the day. I’m now on first name terms with most of the responders at the Ashford Police Control Centre. I didn’t get home til 1.30am and then had to call social workers and police etc. Wandering around Margate at midnight is not the greatest. My job is fun.

Actually, that’s not intended to be sarcastic. It’s hard to have context on screen. I genuinely do love my job; my mum asked me the other day if this is what I expected it to be – and it pretty much is. The high intensity, fast-paced days and having to think on my feet; I do like it. Better a busy day with lots to do than a really quiet day where all my work is done by lunch.

Having said that, falling into bed at 2am and not being able to sleep til 3am because my mind was all wired meant that I slept through my alarm til 10am, and was consequently 2 hours late for Impact today. Thankfully everyone was very gracious! I’m just hoping that it doesn’t all happen again tonight, because I’m meant to be up at 6am tomorrow!

Not posting yesterday meant no Memory Verse Monday…but in our Impact team meeting Roger read out Romans 15:13 to encourage us all, and so I’m taking God’s hint and that will be my memory verse for the week.

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”

Last month I did a focused study on joy and then later we discussed the idea of joy and happiness in our Impact study time. It’s something that’s on my mind a lot recently – something I struggle with, really. But then a while I was browsing online and found a poem that I really love. It’s by a guy called Charles Thomas (C.T) Studd, who was a missionary to China in the 1800’s. I think it’s amazing, and I’ll just end this post by saying: this is the way I hope to live my life.

“Two little lines I heard one day,
Traveling along life’s busy way;
Bringing conviction to my heart,
And from my mind would not depart;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, yes only one,
Soon will its fleeting hours be done;
Then, in ‘that day’ my Lord to meet,
And stand before His Judgement seat;
Only one life,’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, the still small voice,
Gently pleads for a better choice
Bidding me selfish aims to leave,
And to God’s holy will to cleave;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, a few brief years,
Each with its burdens, hopes, and fears;
Each with its clays I must fulfill,
living for self or in His will;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

When this bright world would tempt me sore,
When Satan would a victory score;
When self would seek to have its way,
Then help me Lord with joy to say;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Give me Father, a purpose deep,
In joy or sorrow Thy word to keep;
Faithful and true what e’er the strife,
Pleasing Thee in my daily life;
Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Oh let my love with fervor burn,
And from the world now let me turn;
Living for Thee, and Thee alone,
Bringing Thee pleasure on Thy throne;
Only one life, “twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.

Only one life, yes only one,
Now let me say,”Thy will be done”;
And when at last I’ll hear the call,
I know I’ll say “twas worth it all”;
Only one life,’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last. ”

— extra stanza —

Only one life, ’twill soon be past,
Only what’s done for Christ will last.
And when I am dying, how happy I’ll be,
If the lamp of my life has been burned out for Thee.”